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She is unpredictable, frequent moodswings. Sometimes she’s nice, and sometimes she’s not.
Her name is Yan Ying. 90% of the world can’t pronounce it properly, simple as it seems. But no one really cares so they just call her YY. She is not fond of people with the same name as her. She turns 14 on 6th September and she loves her birthday cause it is a sex symbol. She was from Yew Tee Primary and is still proud of her school. She will never forget the class of 6D’07, or the batch of P6’07. She is currently an idiot in Nanyang Girls High and it is a love-hate relationship. She belongs to 202’09 which she, to be honest, doesn’t feel much for. She is a Theatre Club girl and is more than proud to be one. She especially loves Emo Batch♥, and looks forward to devoting her next 3 years to TCN with much optimism. She does ballet with more than just passion but she can’t do a center split. She is trying her best and is currently aiming for a far-fetched distinction for Grade6. She loves hiphop just as much though she’s pretty new at it. Her favourite sport is swimming and she occasionally plays basketball as a form of stress-relief. She likes to be tan and loves her swimming tan line. The piano, is yet another love-hate relationship. Like most teenagers, her hobbies include MSNing, blogging, and youtubing and facebooking. She loves shopping and doing random stuff like gaying people, jumping over railings, walking in the rain, and having completely irregular sleeping hours. Unlike most teenagers, she thinks that rap music is trash. She also thinks that she is getting old cause she hates the songs the average listens to these days. She can’t explain her love for oldies, country music, ballads, and sentimentals. Nostalgic songs are the best. Her favourite bands are Michael Learns to Rock, The Beatles and Westlife. She loves too many singers to name them all. “Forevers” are bullshit as of now. The night speaks to her the way no one else can. Her favourite thing to do is to curl up with a book on a rainy afternoon in her room, where she feels safest in. Her favourite flower is a black rose, but on the contrary, she likes rainbows and hugs too. She is always torn between two. But she is determined when she sets her mind on something, so she wants the world to shut up and believe in her. Just watch.Tag
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Friday, August 21, 2009, 11:59 PM
a stranger to my eyes.
In random order, a quick update on what has been happening lately.My mum bought a new bolster for me a few days ago, the short kind which is about 1-metre long, because she claimed that my current bolster is too old, smelly and filthy already. So yeah I was really grateful cause she's so thoughtful, but I'll never on my life throw away the "old" one. It has been around with me since forever, and cheesy as it sounds, throwing it away is like throwing a piece of me away.
So when my "old" bolster disappeared the next day, I freaked out and yelled at my maid to ask if she threw it away or something. And after all the blah blah blah, I finally found it in my mum's bedroom and you won't imagine the relief I felt. That's what happens when you get too attached to things. Like how I'm also very attached to my watch - the Baby G one which is now some ugly faded colour, but I love it nonetheless.
There was once a few months back when I left it in the dance studio at Yew Tee CC after a ballet lesson, couldn't find it that night, cried like shit, and went to sleep with my parents. I got it back the next day, of course. To be honest, I'm more protective of my watch than my handphone. It has been around for over a decade so it has alot of sentimental value.
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If you managed to read what I posted on Tuesday night, I'll clarify that I still stand by what I wrote. Even though it was written in a moment of anger and exasperation, it was genuinely what I felt, what I still feel in fact, except the part about giving up. And because my mind is clearer now, I am well aware of the fact that there will be alot of instances like these to come, and judging by the present state, much more in the near future. It's true that sometimes I feel as though I'm standing alone, but I'll be optimistic, won't I? It's possible.
I have dreams.
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Chinese Heritage Centre was boring. Not that the exhibits were, it's just that we were so pushed for time the lady had to rush through everything and in the end we couldn't absorb anything at all. Would have been better if we had the chance to wander off alone, though some people won't bother to read the stuff but at least it will benefit the rest who are interested. And the video thing they showed was like ???, thanks to my substandard Chinese I couldn't understand it at all. They weren't kind enough to put subtitles in it either, so I slept. Sleeping on two chairs ftw, LOL.
I think I'm just really tired this week, thank the sun for Claire Soon Holiday. Loads of things running through my mind because blocks and SIAs are mostly over, so I'm too free and end up thinking about funny things. Haha an example would be the 7th month and yes okay I won't go into detail before I start turning around like once every five seconds or something.
I missed cover space today, and I'm going to miss touch rug on Monday. As for the latter, though it doesn't seem like a big deal to everyone else, to me it shows the start of how one commitment is going to clash with another. Stuff like these I think about alot too.
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Seriously, sometimes when I hear people complain/read their blogs about their parents, I feel damn lucky and grateful for mine. Yes I know we have disagreements and I bitch about them sometimes, I think more often last year than now though, but they really are awesome parents. Even SC always says that my mum is super nice. (:
For starters, my parents never force me to study, it's always "up to you whether you want to do well or not". It's not that they don't care, it's just that they sincerely trust me and trust that I'm mature enough to know what's best for myself. Of course I make mistakes along the way, have slips sometimes (like block test 2 this time), but they don't start to doubt me. Even during the PSLE period there wasn't a single time when I got forced to "sit there and study" or get assigned work by them. I mean, stories of kiasu parents drilling their kids like shit are not uncommon at all, so now I'm kind of like, haha why am I so lucky?
My mum's always going, "Pass can already." Probably because it's quite obvious to her that what I'm constantly aiming for is more than a mere pass - though it's not always that I hit my expectations - so she doesn't have to drill me on my goals any further. I'm so glad that I never have to face the pressure of reporting my results to my parents, like if I get a C6 or something I don't have to worry all day about what will happen when I get home. I don't ever get scoldings or long talks about my results, they don't hound me for my results, or ask me everyday if I've gotten whatever paper back. For a person like me I think that that will really drive me crazy.
Secondly, I don't know how Amy Lim knows this but anyway she mentioned to me (during the Student Dialogue session) that my parents allow me to be very independent. I thought about it and that's really quite true, considering my outside commitments - ballet, hiphop, piano, tuition. So the thing is my mum isn't the dictatorial type who makes sure I excel in every area, rather she lets me take things leisurely and lets me decide. If I'm too tired or don't have the mood to go for anything - not often I assure you - I can just tell her and she'll be like, "Okay you stay at home and rest today, better." Like, I can even call off tuitions myself without even giving her a reason.
And no, I don't abuse my privileges. Apart from the whole procrastination shit there's still some self-discipline somewhere in me. Kthxbye.
Oh yes and about that Facebook quiz, the person who knows me best is my mum. She was tagged.
I'll keep the one for my dad short and sweet. We all know he's the one who comes home the latest because he's too busy slogging in the office, and usually ends up only having dinner after 10pm. Daddy, your hard work and effort don't go unappreciated. I'm sensible enough to understand that money doesn't fall from the sky or come from money trees (lol neopets). And you've always mentioned how I should blog about you coming into my room and cleaning my specs for me every night, so I'm blogging about it now and saying how grateful I am for that small daily gesture. Hmm and get well soon!
I haven't been expressing my love for my parents enough, and I'm glad I'm doing it now. I don't go into their room every night and kiss them goodnight like I did when I was younger, but it doesn't mean that I love them any less. Entries like this don't have to come on their birthdays or wedding anniversary, it should just be blogged from time to time. ♥
Haha you know, I partially hope they'll see this. Oh my why do I feel like tearing now?! T_T
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The sad thing is, if I'm ever gonna be a parent, I doubt I'll be one as good as them. Because if I ever have a kid he/she will like seriously die from my expectations. "豹死留皮, 人死留名", so I'm gonna to make sure that they 留 their 名 down. Not 罪名 hor. Just now Hilary was showing me some youtube videos of this child prodigy playing the piano and I'm already having scary unimaginable thoughts. Like how I'm going to dictate my kid in future, how I'm going to make sure they train/practise 7 days a week twice a day starting from perhaps three years old,
So I should probably swear off marriage and everything in order to prevent one more suffering soul in the world. Awesome.
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I am done. Got too absorbed in blogging, it's 2.28am now. Crab Flower Club later!
Photos next entry.
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weelin (16 Aug 09, 07:25)
Haha yeah.. We're gonna take again on teachers' day, hope everyone will be there! We haven't had a full class photo yet.
nihilanth (16 Aug 09, 08:31)
Lol fine spelling nazi I seriously didn't know.
KL (16 Aug 09, 11:19)
LOL. He should blog too then we can scrutinize his entries. It's not fair like that!
bernie (16 Aug 09, 11:59)
Meh it's not his heart!! ): I'm just sad he used it MEH.
Janice (17 Aug 09, 00:51)
Hello junior!
sx (17 Aug 09, 18:55)
Haha yes Nanyang has nice songs. o_o
LOL HE IS CUTE LAH. LOADS OF LOVE. ♥♥♥
yk (17 Aug 09, 19:31)
Yeah haha. Take care of your blisters~
Shichun (17 Aug 09, 20:44)
Yah lor you so demure as if you will give me your virginity! YOU ARE LIKE A ROSALINE.
yk (19 Aug 09, 10:53)
Okay okay go out! 31st August? And over the Sept hols haha.
kiayee (19 Aug 09, 18:13)
I think it's $170+ for 11 lessons. At Jurong Sports Hall, DancePointe Level 2.
shuhui, ENNING(!!) (20 Aug 09, 18:40, 21 Aug 09, 21:16)
ZOMG what's with the stealing heyao's virginity! OO:
ENNING YOU BETRAYED ME I THOUGHT WE WERE LOVERS.
shuhui (20 Aug 09, 18:39)
Haha my MSG now is totally screwed. Totally can't wait to get back LA, uh, yay. ):
ENNING(!!) (21 Aug 09, 21:17)
I should go disable the smiley faces soon they are so irritating. ):