Smoke gets in your eyes.
Profile
She is unpredictable, frequent moodswings. Sometimes she’s nice, and sometimes she’s not.
Her name is Yan Ying. 90% of the world can’t pronounce it properly, simple as it seems. But no one really cares so they just call her YY. She is not fond of people with the same name as her. She turns 14 on 6th September and she loves her birthday cause it is a sex symbol. She was from Yew Tee Primary and is still proud of her school. She will never forget the class of 6D’07, or the batch of P6’07. She is currently an idiot in Nanyang Girls High and it is a love-hate relationship. She belongs to 202’09 which she, to be honest, doesn’t feel much for. She is a Theatre Club girl and is more than proud to be one. She especially loves Emo Batch♥, and looks forward to devoting her next 3 years to TCN with much optimism. She does ballet with more than just passion but she can’t do a center split. She is trying her best and is currently aiming for a far-fetched distinction for Grade6. She loves hiphop just as much though she’s pretty new at it. Her favourite sport is swimming and she occasionally plays basketball as a form of stress-relief. She likes to be tan and loves her swimming tan line. The piano, is yet another love-hate relationship. Like most teenagers, her hobbies include MSNing, blogging, and youtubing and facebooking. She loves shopping and doing random stuff like gaying people, jumping over railings, walking in the rain, and having completely irregular sleeping hours. Unlike most teenagers, she thinks that rap music is trash. She also thinks that she is getting old cause she hates the songs the average listens to these days. She can’t explain her love for oldies, country music, ballads, and sentimentals. Nostalgic songs are the best. Her favourite bands are Michael Learns to Rock, The Beatles and Westlife. She loves too many singers to name them all. “Forevers” are bullshit as of now. The night speaks to her the way no one else can. Her favourite thing to do is to curl up with a book on a rainy afternoon in her room, where she feels safest in. Her favourite flower is a black rose, but on the contrary, she likes rainbows and hugs too. She is always torn between two. But she is determined when she sets her mind on something, so she wants the world to shut up and believe in her. Just watch.Tag
Links
Coreena
Jane
Jia Tian
Kai Lin
Seng Kitt
Shun Xiang
Wan Ting
Yang Zhi
Yi Chun
Yu Xiang
Siew Boon
Yoke Kay
Andrew
Chong Ee
Denise
Ellyne
Jia Hui
Jing Feng
Joanna
Kar Mun
Marcus
Pamela
Shao Jun
Sherry
Wei Xuan
Yentl
Yu Ting
Zoe
102'08
202'09
Charissa
Cheryl
Ellen
Hilary
Iffera
Jia Ying
Kai Lin
Regine
Shi Chun
Yue Ling
Amanda See
Bethanie
Cheryl
Clarissa
Daphne
Denise
Eiffel
Han Jing
Hyo Lim
Janice
Kia Yee
Rachel Low
Rachel Wu
Shi Yun
Shu Hui
Shu Min
Si Xian
Stephenie
Teresa
Zhi Ying
Chermaine
Chia Wei
Ching Yee
Clare
En Ning
Heyao
Madeleine
Ming Sei
Rachel
Sally
Shi Chen
Xu Yue
Xue Wei
Yi Meng
Yun Xin
Alison
Belda
Brian
Gigi
Gordon
Han Rui
Hwai Mun
Jonathan
Kah Loon
Kiat Long
Malcolm
Mark
Marpussy
Ng Peng
Poochy
Qi Yun
Sean
Shao Qi
Shuin Jian
Xinlin
Zhen Yu
Zi Song
Layout: vehemency
Icon: reruntherace
Thursday, August 13, 2009, 11:59 PM
can't be anymore perfect.
One of those days again with fluctuating moods. I had intended to do some work tonight like LA, but I know nothing good will come out of it if I'm not in the mood to concentrate. Fresh, upset, high, disappointed, excited, exasperated./.
My watch is beeping every hour, I don't know what I pressed, but fact is that it is irritating enough for me to want to throw it out of the window. Or at this point of time at least. It's a new watch I got at $5, it's white, it's pretty, and the best thing is that its watchface is the size of a fifty-cent coin. Yes, yours truly is finally following school rules. Never expected that, did you?
Don't worry though, I'm not going to turn into a block of wood. 江山易改, 本性难移.
Which brings me to the subject of Chinese block test, or blocks in general in fact. So far we've only gotten back Chinese and Math, and for both I deproved. Chinese was plain demoralizing but I'll work harder, and Math was a dejavu of P6 CA1 minus the drama. Yes YK, I think you remember.
Marks lost to careless mistakes feel a thousand times worse than marks lost to questions you genuinely have no idea how to answer. There are no excuses, no matter how high or low your expectations are.
/.
I think everyone has been through some point in time when they don't know whether to laugh or to cry. It's a funny feeling, but I guess I'll be stuck in this hellhole for god knows how long.
Benchmarking - it's horrible, unfair, and it makes things harder for everyone, but we all do it. Subconsciously, or not.
/.
And on to another matter altogether. Penning everything down will make the situation alot worse than it already is and it is bad enough, what's more with the fact that it's the funfair tomorrow. I seriously wonder how we're gonna pull through it, or even how we're going to face each other. Haha.
She might not be the best, neither do I think she is, but after whatever she said on Tuesday I thought at least you'd see some sense in it. Even people like me who has always been closing my ears to everything she says, feeling restless during every of her long lectures, finally understands and appreciates her concern.
And guess what, you don't know how grateful I am to her for giving me a last chance to prove my worth, even when I seemed like a hopeless case. Yes, this is just my perspective, but it's what I would like to say.
Looking at the big picture here, it's not all about her. Unless you're living under a fossil you should be aware of the current situation, or to put blatantly, the fact that we're just about the most unbonded class in the level. To quote her, "There are strong cliques emerging." If she can feel it, I'm sure we can too.
"You know, it has been once ranted that our class is damn unbonded, not united and all that and everyone has been fully aware but we do nothing about it. Then finally one day Mrs Amy makes the sincere effort to speak up and tries to wake up our senses/get us to reflect and finally bond. But then everything backfired and we/they don't even reciprocate her efforts and start shitting her instead."
I'm not ashamed to say I tried to pull us together too last year, I don't know if you felt it. It wasn't all by me of course, there were some others as well, might be you too. Eventually we all gave up. Guess why?
Once again, not meaning to sound like a big shit here, but think about it yourselves, think about your cliques. Then do something about it. Are you guys segregating from the class? Rejecting people's ideas without giving constructive comments yourself? Disrupting lessons by cracking "clique jokes" and laughing extremely loudly among yourselves? Being extremely clique-ish; refusing to work with other classmates? Well, I'm thinking too. I know that my clique isn't the most enthusiastic clique ever, but we're willing to improve, we're willing to work with people from other cliques. And on a personal level, I know that it's not as if I've never disrupted lessons before - more than often I did last year.
Also, don't repeat someone's words when you've let that person down, because that's a contradiction.
To end this off, I hope nobody flames anyone after this, afterall some of us has already blogged about it. This may seem weird, but I have a feeling we might get closer after this, even closer than we first started, after this whole thing is cooled and blown off. Add the fact that we're more aware of what's happening around us, too.
And with a last question which I'm really hopeful about - do we want to do anything about it?
/.
Why didn't I not care or remain oblivious to the situation?
Lies in the personality I guess. Always wanting to state my views and what I feel, not exactly the "nice to everyone" kind of person. Though I know this character of mine will get me into some serious shit in future.
/.
Songs always make me feel better. (: