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She is unpredictable, frequent moodswings. Sometimes she’s nice, and sometimes she’s not.
Her name is Yan Ying. 90% of the world can’t pronounce it properly, simple as it seems. But no one really cares so they just call her YY. She is not fond of people with the same name as her. She turns 14 on 6th September and she loves her birthday cause it is a sex symbol. She was from Yew Tee Primary and is still proud of her school. She will never forget the class of 6D’07, or the batch of P6’07. She is currently an idiot in Nanyang Girls High and it is a love-hate relationship. She belongs to 202’09 which she, to be honest, doesn’t feel much for. She is a Theatre Club girl and is more than proud to be one. She especially loves Emo Batch♥, and looks forward to devoting her next 3 years to TCN with much optimism. She does ballet with more than just passion but she can’t do a center split. She is trying her best and is currently aiming for a far-fetched distinction for Grade6. She loves hiphop just as much though she’s pretty new at it. Her favourite sport is swimming and she occasionally plays basketball as a form of stress-relief. She likes to be tan and loves her swimming tan line. The piano, is yet another love-hate relationship. Like most teenagers, her hobbies include MSNing, blogging, and youtubing and facebooking. She loves shopping and doing random stuff like gaying people, jumping over railings, walking in the rain, and having completely irregular sleeping hours. Unlike most teenagers, she thinks that rap music is trash. She also thinks that she is getting old cause she hates the songs the average listens to these days. She can’t explain her love for oldies, country music, ballads, and sentimentals. Nostalgic songs are the best. Her favourite bands are Michael Learns to Rock, The Beatles and Westlife. She loves too many singers to name them all. “Forevers” are bullshit as of now. The night speaks to her the way no one else can. Her favourite thing to do is to curl up with a book on a rainy afternoon in her room, where she feels safest in. Her favourite flower is a black rose, but on the contrary, she likes rainbows and hugs too. She is always torn between two. But she is determined when she sets her mind on something, so she wants the world to shut up and believe in her. Just watch.Tag
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Friday, July 24, 2009, 11:59 PM
try learning that the hard way.
Feels just a little haywired today. *ambiguous face*The happy stuff first.
1) Drama yesterday was hilarious. Somehow whenever there's me things always end up really sadistic or creepy and I think we got overexcited, or something. I was laughing (or rather cackling) cause the image I pictured.. I think I would get goosebumps myself if I watched it. After drama M4 was going to be empty for the next hour or so, so Hilary was playing the piano for awhile and I made use of the opportunity of having a big empty space to dance. Then we got into the idea of me dancing to her music, so we ended up doing it with Iffera watching and she said that the combination was really really good and cool. I love the Grade 6 classical dance alot lol.
2) I was having epic stomachache this morning, cause recently I've been doing the stupidiest thing ever by drinking both milo and coffee in the morning. I had a stomachache on Tuesday too though it wasn't as bad as today's, but on that day I drank both hot drinks as well. Someone said that coffee and milo probably erode in each other, cause today's was seriously so bad that I got stuck in the toilet cubicle for practically the entire Geography lesson (three-quarter of it actually). I was not having constipation, much rather the opposite of it because the problem was that I couldn't uh, get anything out.
I have no idea why this is parked under "happy stuff" but I found it worth the LOL because everyone was wondering where I went, everyone except Teacher A. With reference to H's blog there were assumptions like me sleeping in the toilet, dropped into the toilet bowl, fainted in the toilet, and all the while I was trying to my best to shit. Well actually I did 10 minutes before geog ended, but it would be freaking funny to strut right back into class after 35 minutes of being in the toilet. And I realised today that when you're having lessons by bochap teachers, you can actually go to the toilet and have a nice, good, cosy sleep. Of course you don't do that with teachers like Miss Teng around.
Speaking of Miss Teng, the other day after class she was just telling me to sit more refinely - not sure if there's such a word but you get what I mean - and the way she said it was like animated so I wanted to laugh. Cause I always cross my legs when I sit, not the girls' kind but the guy, "my father reading newspaper" kind of crossed legs. Very chor lor. Not nice. Must be more feminine. -_-
Okay what else has been happy. Can't remember, so moving on.
Yeah and I have a feeling that whatever that's going to written from this point onwards won't be very nice so if you're in a really shit mood now then don't read it.
But of course you still will.
1) I can't submit my sadistic flash animation. It has to be on a global issue, and they even listed examples such as "Crime Prevention", unfortunately mine's the exact opposite.
2) Block tests are in eleven days and I wanted to kill the person who reminded me. Thinking "two weekends" seem so much longer than that though I know it'll be over before I know it. Overloading of homework, how to study now? "Procrastination is like masturbation, it feels good but in the end you know that you're just screwing yourself."
3) "In our school, where people are mostly carbon copies of one another, its so hard to find someone who is original. Really original. Not unoriginal people trying to be original. So about that originality thing? Its making me so paranoid. I don't want someone to say "you & xxx are so alike." or even worse, "Wah, you are LIKE xxx leh." This is obviously a general thing, because who the hell wants to resemble someone else. But in my case, its getting rather extreme." - asphyxi-atedd. I was blog surfing, found this, and think it kind of explains it all. Yeah, who the hell wants to resemble someone else, so why don't you just be yourself?
4) It's over and I feel nothing but glad. When people ask me, "Do you really want it?", I've never been able to give a definite yes or a definite no. Of course I do know exactly how much I want it, but there's always something else I feel guilty for letting down. It doesn't matter a single bit about what I get, more of the amount of time and effort I've promised I'll put into it, however cliche and shit this may sound. And if I had said yes that would basically mean giving this all up to something else altogether, and lip service is the suckiest thing ever. 24 hours a day, only. A beggar gets 24 hours, a CEO gets 24 hours too, time doesn't vary by the amount of things you want or have to do.
Another reason why I'm happy is because I'm sick of all the hypocrisy and whatever that's involved, so desperate sometimes I look at them and realise that they are not people I can work well with. To be honest I've never been exceptionally good in the "teamwork" area, and also I'll bet you money (name any amount) that I won't make it. Others may cry, but I'm taking it in my stride as usual and of course I won't feel like "the entire world is crashing down on me". Roll eyes like a Cikgu Hanim.
"The problem with me is that I don't dare to do my best because I'm constantly afraid that my best will disappoint me. I put in effort, but I don't put in my all, cause it's the perfect excuse for not doing well." - twelfthminute. Sometimes it's really the right way to take things.
5) You know, since I've seen it, I might as well blog about this too. As my favourite line goes, "Please bitch with sense." Do you realize that I don't, if not rarely, bitch about untrue stuff, because it would just make me seem really insecure and shows that I don't have enough facts to sustain my statement. Better yet, I don't bitch to push one person's anger on me to someone else, because I hate shunning responsibilities (for work-related especially, shows how incapable you are).
All I wanted to do was take the same line as you, cause there was alot I had to talk to you about. Doesn't matter which line, I'm just going to follow you anyway. So when I asked you which line you're going to take, you said "red" without hesitation. Then I replied, "Okay, then I'm taking red too." And this shows that I "dragged you off to go home via the red line", wow, I didn't know. Yeah, I'm "sometimes like that", right?
Of course I know that what said in anger will be words that I'll regret later on, but I'll be really straightforward here and say that being exploited with false facts that seem to suggest that I'm a heartless bitch is not fun at all. I don't want unnecessary conflicts, and I wouldn't call this bitching about you now but I hope you get what I mean by not pushing her anger to me to save yourself. But anyway she's already pissed with me as well so what's the point of you doing that.
And on a side note, if we had known that you'd be so sensitive as to think that we hate you to the core just because we take a different MRT from you, you should have said it to our face earlier. Then I would have taken it with you, and every single bus trip from today onwards.
6) When I'm serious I mean most of the things that I say. So when I say that it's something I won't forget, you can count on me not to.
7) I'm sorry I wrecked your life like that, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for making you feel the hurt you don't deserve to feel.