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She is unpredictable, frequent moodswings. Sometimes she’s nice, and sometimes she’s not.
Her name is Yan Ying. 90% of the world can’t pronounce it properly, simple as it seems. But no one really cares so they just call her YY. She is not fond of people with the same name as her. She turns 14 on 6th September and she loves her birthday cause it is a sex symbol. She was from Yew Tee Primary and is still proud of her school. She will never forget the class of 6D’07, or the batch of P6’07. She is currently an idiot in Nanyang Girls High and it is a love-hate relationship. She belongs to 202’09 which she, to be honest, doesn’t feel much for. She is a Theatre Club girl and is more than proud to be one. She especially loves Emo Batch♥, and looks forward to devoting her next 3 years to TCN with much optimism. She does ballet with more than just passion but she can’t do a center split. She is trying her best and is currently aiming for a far-fetched distinction for Grade6. She loves hiphop just as much though she’s pretty new at it. Her favourite sport is swimming and she occasionally plays basketball as a form of stress-relief. She likes to be tan and loves her swimming tan line. The piano, is yet another love-hate relationship. Like most teenagers, her hobbies include MSNing, blogging, and youtubing and facebooking. She loves shopping and doing random stuff like gaying people, jumping over railings, walking in the rain, and having completely irregular sleeping hours. Unlike most teenagers, she thinks that rap music is trash. She also thinks that she is getting old cause she hates the songs the average listens to these days. She can’t explain her love for oldies, country music, ballads, and sentimentals. Nostalgic songs are the best. Her favourite bands are Michael Learns to Rock, The Beatles and Westlife. She loves too many singers to name them all. “Forevers” are bullshit as of now. The night speaks to her the way no one else can. Her favourite thing to do is to curl up with a book on a rainy afternoon in her room, where she feels safest in. Her favourite flower is a black rose, but on the contrary, she likes rainbows and hugs too. She is always torn between two. But she is determined when she sets her mind on something, so she wants the world to shut up and believe in her. Just watch.Tag
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Monday, April 14, 2008, 11:09 PM
GAMMA RAYS PLAY! + Handphone shit. ):
You broke my heart, not once, but twice.It's not my fault if I can't help looking at you. It's not my fault if I can't stop touching you. It's not my fault that I do like you. My only mistake was to fall to much in love with you.
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off without you, a part of me just won't let go.
I smile yet break down and cry, you're the reason I keep going and the reason I fall, cause without you in my life I'm nothing at all. You are the one who gives me the freedom I need, the one who companies me anywhere, anytime. The one who makes sure I don't get bored, the one who makes my everyday worthwhile.
Do you want to know what my problem is? Fine, I will tell you what my problem is. I LOVE YOU.
But I can't take it anymore. You keep doing the same thing to piss me off, irritate me so much, that everytime I wonder if it's really worth it.
I know it's hard to love me, but couldn't you please just try anyway?
I'm mad at myself, not you. I'm mad for always being nice, always trying to clear up the mess you make, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, following you, changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, and most of all...For not hating you which I know I should...
But I just can't.
I remember when I still believed the things your other-half said. Trusted in them so much. Thought you were so wonderful, so perfect. Thought there could be no one else better than you. I was so confident that you would be The One, the one that will take my hand and go through thick and thin with me for a long, long time.
And yet..
You disappointed me, time and again..
"Your other-half" = The manual.
YES.
Stupid handphone. SUCKER.
AND I STILL LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE BLACK AND NOT PINK.
As my official boyfriend you are supposed to be LOYAL to me and now you break down AGAIN. And now you make me go down to bloody Wisma again to get that shit body of yours repaired.
Do you know how much time, energy and *chingching* am I wasting on you? I hate it everytime your screen blanks out and that evil red light starts to shine, and then I'll have to off and on it again.
And now? No more beautiful sparkling eyes staring back up at me. ALL I SEE IS YOUR EMPTY, LIFELESS EYES. One big blank empty screen. Very nice, huh.
I can't stand you.
I want a break-up.
You make it really hard to love you sometimes.
But I promise, no matter what happens, I will be with you. Even if you're being such a sonofabitch.
~~~
I bet you tio shocked right! Nevermind, let's refresh my Scandalous List! :D
Husband = Computer (if this one dies I'll type all that emo crap twice as long)
Boyfriend = Handphone T.T
Spare tyres = My camera, radio, iPod, and I'll add "Microphone" in as soon as I get one. (:
Zzz I am super pissed now lah. Seriously stupid handphone. Dumbassdumbassdumbass.
Wadeva I very pissed.
I really very pissed.
All my contacts and pictures erase diao liao. Die. The more I think about it, the more I feel so pissed and so emo.
Cheat my feelings.
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Hmm okay. Anyway the biggest thing today was the fact that
THE SEC ONES FROM THEATRECLUBNANYANG PERFORMED
THE EFFECT OF GAMMA RAYS ON MAN-IN-THE-MOON MARIGOLDS
Ok I know the title is damn long lol.
Yup, basically we had letter of absence from the whole day of lesson today!
So the entire morning from 7-1 was tech run, tech run, and more tech run. It's kind of sian, like the seniors already said before. During the tech run our energy level was damn low and yeah the seniors were exasperated with us yet again..
Hmm. At around 7+ my batch and I went to the M4-04 to get the props and costumes and everything down to the audi. After we got changed we started the technical run. There was alot of testing, trying out, screwing up, repetition with all that curtain stuff, lighting stuff, sound effects and everything, but that's basically how a tech run goes. I think it's the first time I've seen one. ^^
And I think it's simply amazing. I am very very fascinated with all that backstage stuff. Still remembered what Yingci said, "Not many people can appreciate the beauty of backstage."
In the past I couldn't too, but that changed after being in TCN for awhile. (:
And fortunately the sec ones are going to be crewing for Scarlet, our production this year! ^^
And I also like to run around and drag props around HAHAHA. Random! :D
And have I mentioned that the first instalment for "Scarlet" will be on 18th April (this Friday!) at 7.30-8pm? MUST COME AND WATCH OKAY. ^^ Very nice one!! ^^ And it's free!! ^^
Okay back to topic.
So tech run.. Yadayadayada..
We ran through like about 2-3 times lah. And around 12.15 Hanjing forced us to go have our lunch even though some of us didn't want to. Bo pian lor. ):
And then went back to dressing room to put on our make-up..I think that point of time was the most anxious and chiong one. The seniors were like having that shit-no-time-already face and we chionged through everything and there was alot of PASSMETHIS PASSMETHAT.
And everyone was talking super fast LOL.
Okay.. And then with one final jiayou, we all went to take our place.
Mine was at the back of the audi, with the audiences, and I was supposed to enter from there. Lol damn cool right. And so I could also watch like 2/5 of the play!
However when I took my place there I attracted alot of stares. It was so scary.
And then it was 1pm.
I bet everyone felt the same adrenaline surging through us. And that anticipation and that anxiousness of not knowing what is going to happen next. And of course that thudding in our hearts or rather our whole body.
It was so scary okay.
And the play started. First few parts, there was abit of screw up. Okay quite major screw-ups. Like the back curtains got stuck and couldn't close. So the CYC was like whole thing showing there. And some of the props we need for the second act was supposed to be behind the back curtains so it could be seen.. Nevermind it's just a feather boa and smart lil Shumin stayed in her crazy character and skipped out onto the stage at some point of time and grabbed the feather boa and danced around with it before skipping backstage aka salvaging the feather boa.
Don't understand? Nevermind.
But also Shumin was talking backstage with the mike on and the WHOLE AUDI COULD HEAR.
Okay it was muffled what shewas saying.
But not her fault actually. She said that she was supposed to communicate with Hanjing but somehow the whole audi could hear. LOL.
And also at the beginning part dear Tillie forgot to come out on stage. LOL.
And blahblahblah..
Basically that. Actually the only other obvious mistake made throughout the whole play was that some of the lines weren't enunciated properly enough, aka mumbling.
The rest was quite okay. In fact it was AWESOME. Our energy level suddenly shot up damn high (it did in the dressing room actually) and they suddenly at the spot thought up of some funny things they never did before during the rehearsals.
The audience laughed alot, yes, but somehow my heart couldn't be put at ease until the whole play finished and I felt nervous even for the people up on stage. As in, it would be so shitty if someone forgot their lines or something. And they just stone down there. AND NO THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN! :D
And before my cue I kept looking over to Hanjing and Rachel, our director and assistant director, now and then to see their expressions. Unreadable. -.-
When my cue was done, I went backstage and slack there cause I wasn't needed anymore. So I was like going over to Stephanie (our sound manager) and Nicole (our sec 1 stage manager but we prefer to call her TT aka Technician Tubby) and gaze in awe at how they manage the sound and curtains.
Blah. Slack damn long. Then curtain call le.
Oh goodness I felt so damn proud of my batchmates.
Afterall, EMO BATCH ROCKS!!
How the term 'emo batch' came about, I DON'T KNOW. I think it was something like.. At first the sec 4 seniors were calling us the WEIRD BATCH, then I dunno, I think it was the sec 2s who started calling us emo batch or something. I dont know I dont know lol, but all I know is that we like our title and we always scream "GO EMO!" even though we are smiling and being super high. LOL SUPER CONTRADICTION.
And yes, the applause, oh goodness. I've always savoured this great moment of accomplishment. Every applause I received over the years never fail to make me smile. (:
Lalala...We applauded for the backstage crew..The lighting people..
And then the whole thing was over. Just OVER.
And then we ran backstage and screamed and yelled and hugged and did all the crazy whatnots. Haha we were all so proud of ourselves, so happy for completing this play rather smoothly.
I am so proud of Emo Batch. ♥
Hey, it wasn't easy. It was 2-3 months of effort. Such a short time, yet we did so much. It felt as though we were already breathing the script. We knew the text so well we could even recite the other characters' lines in our sleep, and I'm serious.
And furthermore, what makes it even more tough is the fact that we only entered TCN in the start of February. We were so clueless about everything and so hopeless, and it was a completely new environment. You know it's amazing that we managed to pull together a rather successful play in just around 2 months.
You know people, I think TCN rocks. And I love Theatre Club more than any other CCA in the world. And I love my Emo-Batch more than any other batch in the world. And I mean everything I say.
Back in the dressing room we were making some little talks about how we hope this thing can start all over again..How we still can remember the day we went to photocopy the script..It was like, the first or second time we met each other okay. And we were so lost. o.0
I think I'll miss all the shouting over the quadrangle, moving props from drama stall to M4-04 to audi to atrium to whereverwhereverwherever, and I'll definitely miss seeing that book everyday. Bet it's gonna be stashed somewhere in my drawer after today. =X
Hey but it's alright you know. Cause the words are already totally imprinted in our minds.
I still can remember when I got grouped together with shuhui, shumin and nanny. Haha we were trying so hard to memorize our lines, complaining again and again and again how much we had to do, but well, LOOK. At the end of the day we are so familiar with our lines, aren't we?
Haha I think this play is a really good experience. Like our seniors told us, it is very rare for sec ones to be able to perform. It's kind of like a tradition for sec one-ers for TCN to do crewing.
And well, most importantly I have to thank the seniors of course, thank you Hanjing and Rachel for directing the play, Stephanie for the sounds, and Zongbin for the lights. Emo-Batch really really appreciate it lots&lots. (: