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She is unpredictable, frequent moodswings. Sometimes she’s nice, and sometimes she’s not.
Her name is Yan Ying. 90% of the world can’t pronounce it properly, simple as it seems. But no one really cares so they just call her YY. She is not fond of people with the same name as her. She turns 14 on 6th September and she loves her birthday cause it is a sex symbol. She was from Yew Tee Primary and is still proud of her school. She will never forget the class of 6D’07, or the batch of P6’07. She is currently an idiot in Nanyang Girls High and it is a love-hate relationship. She belongs to 202’09 which she, to be honest, doesn’t feel much for. She is a Theatre Club girl and is more than proud to be one. She especially loves Emo Batch♥, and looks forward to devoting her next 3 years to TCN with much optimism. She does ballet with more than just passion but she can’t do a center split. She is trying her best and is currently aiming for a far-fetched distinction for Grade6. She loves hiphop just as much though she’s pretty new at it. Her favourite sport is swimming and she occasionally plays basketball as a form of stress-relief. She likes to be tan and loves her swimming tan line. The piano, is yet another love-hate relationship. Like most teenagers, her hobbies include MSNing, blogging, and youtubing and facebooking. She loves shopping and doing random stuff like gaying people, jumping over railings, walking in the rain, and having completely irregular sleeping hours. Unlike most teenagers, she thinks that rap music is trash. She also thinks that she is getting old cause she hates the songs the average listens to these days. She can’t explain her love for oldies, country music, ballads, and sentimentals. Nostalgic songs are the best. Her favourite bands are Michael Learns to Rock, The Beatles and Westlife. She loves too many singers to name them all. “Forevers” are bullshit as of now. The night speaks to her the way no one else can. Her favourite thing to do is to curl up with a book on a rainy afternoon in her room, where she feels safest in. Her favourite flower is a black rose, but on the contrary, she likes rainbows and hugs too. She is always torn between two. But she is determined when she sets her mind on something, so she wants the world to shut up and believe in her. Just watch.Tag
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Thursday, September 13, 2007, 10:20 PM
Prelim sucks .
Prelim sucks...Alot.
Well for lots of people it did. Other classes.
Those from my class don't really seem to care.
IT IS SHOCKING.
IDK, I don't think everyone did well (some did, of course), and those who didn't do well still seem like they don't care..
Whereas other classes are going, "SIGH."
They were very disappointed.
My class ..
You could totally see the contradiction! Before supp class everyone was still smiling and happily chatting away!
Are they contented?
Are they complacent?
They shouldn't be, not at this time.
I did improve, but not good enough. I only improved 8 marks altogether.
Full run-down.
English.
84.
Although I improved from 81.8 (SA1) to 84, I still felt that it wasn't yet up to my standard.
This shouldn't be my true potential.
I should at least hit an 88, or even an A*.
Not 84.
Not.
Math.
99.
92 to 99.
I'm okay with this. Just fine.
But not too happy.
I'm never happy for Math, NEVER, unless a 100.
Which is quite difficult.
Another reason I feel just average about it is because 2 other pupils in my class (CKM and Ethan) also hit 99.
So I'm just in the same boat.
Math is the subject I have the highest chance of winning CKM, but not this time.
Chinese.
87.
83.5 to 87.
Happy, satisfied.
I could do better, but this is my best record since P5 SA1.
Chinese results always bring a smile to my face, because I'm always gradually improving.
Around 80 for P5 SA1...Then around 81 for P5 SA2...Then 83.5 for P6 SA1...Then 87 for prelims.
As I've said, I've worked the hardest on Chinese (despite that @#$%^&* teacher), and in the midst, kind of neglected my other subjects.
I'm just glad I could maintain my standard for Math (and that my speed and accuracy has always been very good XD), though I neglected it most.
87 might be horrible for CKM, Joy Wong, TKL (wooo~~~ top school sia), but it's good for me.
My Chinese has always sucked, as everyone knows that.
And my tutor said, "Excellence is when you hit your true potential." Like, B grade person hitting B is excellent already, no need for an A*.
I could still do better, obviously.
I hope I still can improve for PSLE.
I really hope.
Science.
80.5, rounded off to 81 in results slip.
I really don't wanna talk about it.
It's just way, way, way below my standard.
81 is just..
idk, it's so horrible, I've never gotten this low for Science in my entire life.
Anyway, I deproved from 86.
So today, got back result slip.
When it reached like position 26 or whatever, my heart started palpitating wildly (although I kinda know my standard already) and SJ had to pretty much calm me down as he sat in front of me.
My walk to Miss Lin was like walk to hell man.
I was gritting my teeth so hard.
Couldn't even relax when Miss Lin said, "Well done."
351.
It was devastating.
It wasn't even Well Done! I really don't know why Miss Lin said that!
Say my expectations high or whatever.
I don't even know what I expected anyway.
I don't know how much I get then I can feel contented.
I am greedy.
I want too much.
But I want to get scholarship in PSLE. Then I know I'll be very contented.
So immediately after the 4 boys got their results, they automatically came to my table, which was "converted" into a discussion area for us. (They got like..300+..310+.. =/.. I don't have time to care about them already, now it's all about me, me in the spotlight. My results are the first thing on my head.)
I couldn't quite talk.
I felt numb.
My face turned red.
I wanted to throw up.
But I didn't cry, I couldn't.
As usual, it was the same few who noticed. JF, Gerald, SJ, Odelia, SB, Yan Ting, Sherry.
idk, but whenever I'm depressed the boys are very very very nice to me.
All seven of them said, in the midst of their comforting words, the similar line of, "Aiya! You confirm in Nanyang already! Still so sad for what?!"
I just want to do EXCELLENTLY.
I want to WIN.
I am kiasu.
But I didn't get top 3 this time.
I'm afraid I wouldn't even hit top 5.
Kar Mun won me.
Ren Zhi won me.
Xi Mei won me.
Shu Ting won me. (at least I think so, cuz she said above 350..)
And other class obviously there's TKL, Joy..Sure still got alot.
WHO ELSE?!
THERE, no more top 5 in school.
Yan Ting said that my disappointment is their (as in, say, sherry, odelia, yan ting) happiness, because if they get my results, they'll be over the moon. I kind of smiled at that. idk, I seem to always smile abit at everything Yan Ting says.
It's just prelim anyway . I am confident I will do better for PSLE. I will and I MUST.
And a friend said to me just minutes ago, "Your final battle will start soon. Remember, take no prisoners, kill them all."
I like that quote.
Probably what he did in PSLE.
And Jing Feng said too, "失败是成功之母."
There's this one line Miss Lin said which always rings in my ears. Always, I can never seem to forget it or get it out of my head.
Should be my favorite quote.
"Change your disappointment into determination."
I will.
I'll be disappointed today, but I will wake up, determined and steady tomorrow.
And sit for my PSLE LC tomorrow.
"Without confidence, half the battle is lost."