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She is unpredictable, frequent moodswings. Sometimes she’s nice, and sometimes she’s not.
Her name is Yan Ying. 90% of the world can’t pronounce it properly, simple as it seems. But no one really cares so they just call her YY. She is not fond of people with the same name as her. She turns 14 on 6th September and she loves her birthday cause it is a sex symbol. She was from Yew Tee Primary and is still proud of her school. She will never forget the class of 6D’07, or the batch of P6’07. She is currently an idiot in Nanyang Girls High and it is a love-hate relationship. She belongs to 202’09 which she, to be honest, doesn’t feel much for. She is a Theatre Club girl and is more than proud to be one. She especially loves Emo Batch♥, and looks forward to devoting her next 3 years to TCN with much optimism. She does ballet with more than just passion but she can’t do a center split. She is trying her best and is currently aiming for a far-fetched distinction for Grade6. She loves hiphop just as much though she’s pretty new at it. Her favourite sport is swimming and she occasionally plays basketball as a form of stress-relief. She likes to be tan and loves her swimming tan line. The piano, is yet another love-hate relationship. Like most teenagers, her hobbies include MSNing, blogging, and youtubing and facebooking. She loves shopping and doing random stuff like gaying people, jumping over railings, walking in the rain, and having completely irregular sleeping hours. Unlike most teenagers, she thinks that rap music is trash. She also thinks that she is getting old cause she hates the songs the average listens to these days. She can’t explain her love for oldies, country music, ballads, and sentimentals. Nostalgic songs are the best. Her favourite bands are Michael Learns to Rock, The Beatles and Westlife. She loves too many singers to name them all. “Forevers” are bullshit as of now. The night speaks to her the way no one else can. Her favourite thing to do is to curl up with a book on a rainy afternoon in her room, where she feels safest in. Her favourite flower is a black rose, but on the contrary, she likes rainbows and hugs too. She is always torn between two. But she is determined when she sets her mind on something, so she wants the world to shut up and believe in her. Just watch.Tag
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007, 11:59 PM
SS & HE
I didn't flip a page for Social Studies and Health Education yesterday night. I mean, useless one larr. Even PSLE also never test. And it's open book. -.-Something pretty stupid happened. Paper lousy quality or whatever, because I did the first five questions before we could start the paper. I mean, Geng You, Xi Mei, Yoke Kay, etc, also. The cover sheet was translucent what. =))
Oh I didn't even have to strain my eyes. Like, the questions are crystal clear right before me.
H.E was totally common sense. Didn't even have to flip book.
Yeahh it's my favorite paper of course. And my brain cells' as well because they don't have to do work.
Oh yahh, Miss Lin said something which really depressed the class.
Our Science paper sucked.
Someone FAILED. Can you believe it, FAILED? If I do I'm really going to cut my wrist and I'm not kidding. Because failing in primary school is like...
And most of us scored 50+, 60+, Bs, Cs...
That actually caused it to be the hottest topic of the day for 6D. Everyone's talking about the Science, "I scared I fail", "I'm very scared to get my results", etc.
Well, I'm afraid to. Because a 70+ means a definite OUT for Nanyang.
Which is, really probable that I'll get 70+ for prelims because Miss Lin said we averaged Bs and Cs.
The classroom atmosphere was so tense. It was frightening.
See, I told you the Science paper was tough. How dare people still say 'okay'. See, don't listen to CKM and me la.
Man, I'm really dreading tomorrow. She said our English was disappointing too. I want to see my Math, at least hoping it will bring a smile.
But 99..That's like so... @#$%^&*(
Miss Lin said Math was slightly EASY. What?! IT'S NOT EASY! NOT!!!
If it goes any harder for PSLE I should tell myself to forget about that school.
Okay done. I'm effing paranoid.
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Oh yahh, good news.
Nothing to do with results.
SJ apologised to me. =)) If he didn't I woulda given him the cold shoulder until he did.
Well ever since Monday when he accused me of something I didn't do. Not MY fault Gerald was unhappy is it? It was his fault lar, who ask him tell the person he most shouldn't have told, my secret.
Then I say, "Chu mai peng you." Then he felt guilty is correct one what. Luckily "he-most-shouldn't-have-told" didn't take it seriously. Phew.
Okay firstly I declare I ain't bad-mouthing anyone. Secret's nothing related to that. But yeahh, there's a flirter I know. Hard core flirter. Only YYK, ASB, Odelia (my three best female friends + Carrissa) and me know who, because we all agree that it's TOTALLY obvious. I just told Odelia, "Aiyah..Just look around you know who already lah.." Then two seconds later she whispered the name to me.
We're now having this ratio thingie going on, and so when we see that immoral flirter flirting (duhh what else is she good at), we say, "The ratio is 1:6", etc. Girl:Boys, and the number of the girl will always stay constant, at 1, of course. =X
Sometimes I feel pity for her best friend, whom I sometimes see tagging along behind her.
She's gonna have LOTS of problems in secondary school, especially in mixed schools, because when all the girls grow up and mature in their thinking, they will naturally HATE flirters and think of them as "shameless sluts". Therefore, her friendship with the girls will degenerate, and friendship with your own gender is actually very important, esp in secondary schools.
Because you can't deny the fact that boys and girls are different after all, even in their thinkings. And I hate that fact.
I'm born in the wrong gender, you see. I shall relate you my experience later at this entry.
You can differentiate between geniune friendship and flirting with the boys.
Sometimes, by the way they hit.
Like me, I hit them with my fist and my might - I don't spare mercy or whatsover, I just hit and have fun. And esp SJ (gerald and JF more gentlemanly one) will hit back and I don't care.
Like her, they hit really sissily. I don't even consider that as HIT, actually, because it looks more like doing the "sa jiao" motion. With a really dramatic expression (the most obvious difference) and huge wide smile on her face.
Man I just hate her lah. But I will still try to be as amiable as possible towards her because I don't wanna leave the school giving cold shoulder to everyone.
And I'll make sure Graduation Night is an unforgettable night, like it or not. Teachers said that it's 1) Held in hotel, 2) Held in countryclub, 3) If plan backfires, at school.
To tell you the truth I don't really care. I just wanna see everyone smiling and having the time of their lifes. =)
OKAYYY...
Back to topic.
Hmm anyway I didn't talk to him yesterday and Monday, and even if I did I was saying damn sarcastic stuff. I've decided on Monday not to be so vulnerable and give in to him everytime, because seriously I've been giving in to everyone.
We were released at 12.40p.m, our class, 6C and 5H because we talked during assembly or whatever and Mdm Nora had to give us some lecture for 10 mins which I was practically sleeping through. Tell me which guai gin na remembers everything Mdm Nora said and vows to stay guai forever.
I remembered she said something like, "Even if the assembly doesn't interest you, you should show some respect! Truthfully I don't even know WHY this assembly doesn't interest you."
O.O She doesn't know why?!
Well the person on stage was talking about "What makes a good book". Who cares lar, I just see the book, read the summary, and if it interests me I take it off the shelf. Sif I care bout the font, the size of the book, if its yellow or not...
Anyway, your efforts are greatly appreciated as I'm sure the P2s were super enthu.
Okay then after school, because wai gong only came at 1pm, I went basketball court for awhile..Gosh I'm seriously a-d-d-i-c-t-e-d.
Then because SJ was very near me, just beside me, and JF and Gerald were snatching the bball, he muttered, "Sorry lah."
I wanted to smile, but then I didn't want to show I was THAT vulnerable, and so for a few seconds I didn't say anything and walked forward, totally ignoring him. Man, I hope he felt dejected. He deserved that didn't he.
But then I turned around, smiled and said, "Apology accepted!"
Seriously I'm a person who HATES cold wars, HATES falling out with people, HATES argueing..I just like to talk to whoever I want at anytime, with no restriction. The reason why I had cold war with SJ was because I've decided that I don't wanna get "bullied" so easily already, and I don't want to give in to him yet again.
Unmistakably I'm also a person who forgives VERY VERY easily, and when they apologize or something I feel damn happy, because as I said, I hate to fall out with people. Gerald SMS-ed me on Monday afternoon and I was so relieved. Once YYK and I were totally having this @#$%^&*( problem with each other and when she SMS-ed me to apologize I was like, "YES!" and replied her immediately. SB also did something too, but I won't mention here...But I did forgive her also. The longest I take is like 1 day to calm down.
Seems like JF is the only one who never "chu mai" me before. =)) Thanks xiao mai cao.
I used to be the one who apologize, even though it's not my fault, but I decided that it was time for me to train my emotional level and not be so vulnerable.
Although SB still said I am.
Just that I really look 0% vulnerable on the outside. Hehz..
Someday or other my vulnerability will wreck me.
I should train up first. Maybe next time someone apologizes I should really ignore them.
Just that I can't bring myself to do that.
As I said, I hate falling out with people.
I hate hurting people's feelings also. =/
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Oh yeshh, I made two achievements just now!!
1st achievement - One level up for patience.
I seriously have NO patience man. I was making this teachers' day handmade stuff, with the small small beads and shaping plate, etc. The one where you have to slowly slowly put the beads down on the shaping plate or whatever it is called to form a shape.
I HAVE MAN FINGERS.
I was damn agitated and paranoid while doing that thing. It's DIFFICULT for me lah, I'm so clumsy and impatient. There was a time when I stood up and went ballistic. Because I was at the living room, I just took the sofa cushions and smacked the sofa hard. And stifled a scream.
See I'm not born to do girly things!!!!!
Although..I still do love to "da ban". Just without make-up - Oh it encourages pimples too.
2nd achievement - I. OMG. I. SIM YAN YING. DARED TO PICK UP AN INSECT BY ITS WINGS.
Okay it was probably about 1cm long..And it was dead..But still it's my first time!!!
I mustered up my courage and...
YAY!!!
OMG IT'S ME!!!!!!!!!!!
THE TOTAL INSECT FREAK!!!!!!!!!!! (Okay maybe this is girls' trait also)
Oh yahh, dunno Monday or something, there was a cockroach among our bags at the front. Exam that time..Then exam finish go take bag mah. Then I was freaking scared because they said got cockroach. Then I begged YYK to help me take my bag.
She's so much braver than me one lor.
Anyway, EWWWW lah! The cockroach was dead and the boys were like taking it by its feelers and dangling it about, throwing it here and there and laughing. No way I'm doing that, NO WAY.
Looking at the cockroach freaks me out already.
I HATE COCKROACHES.
EWWW.