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She is unpredictable, frequent moodswings. Sometimes she’s nice, and sometimes she’s not.
Her name is Yan Ying. 90% of the world can’t pronounce it properly, simple as it seems. But no one really cares so they just call her YY. She is not fond of people with the same name as her. She turns 14 on 6th September and she loves her birthday cause it is a sex symbol. She was from Yew Tee Primary and is still proud of her school. She will never forget the class of 6D’07, or the batch of P6’07. She is currently an idiot in Nanyang Girls High and it is a love-hate relationship. She belongs to 202’09 which she, to be honest, doesn’t feel much for. She is a Theatre Club girl and is more than proud to be one. She especially loves Emo Batch♥, and looks forward to devoting her next 3 years to TCN with much optimism. She does ballet with more than just passion but she can’t do a center split. She is trying her best and is currently aiming for a far-fetched distinction for Grade6. She loves hiphop just as much though she’s pretty new at it. Her favourite sport is swimming and she occasionally plays basketball as a form of stress-relief. She likes to be tan and loves her swimming tan line. The piano, is yet another love-hate relationship. Like most teenagers, her hobbies include MSNing, blogging, and youtubing and facebooking. She loves shopping and doing random stuff like gaying people, jumping over railings, walking in the rain, and having completely irregular sleeping hours. Unlike most teenagers, she thinks that rap music is trash. She also thinks that she is getting old cause she hates the songs the average listens to these days. She can’t explain her love for oldies, country music, ballads, and sentimentals. Nostalgic songs are the best. Her favourite bands are Michael Learns to Rock, The Beatles and Westlife. She loves too many singers to name them all. “Forevers” are bullshit as of now. The night speaks to her the way no one else can. Her favourite thing to do is to curl up with a book on a rainy afternoon in her room, where she feels safest in. Her favourite flower is a black rose, but on the contrary, she likes rainbows and hugs too. She is always torn between two. But she is determined when she sets her mind on something, so she wants the world to shut up and believe in her. Just watch.Tag
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Wednesday, August 15, 2007, 11:17 PM
PSLE oral...(The before)
Starting to freak out, starting to lose confidence, starting to think negative, starting to think I will fail it.Although there won't be a chance that I will fail, unless I suddenly break down and can't force a word out of my mouth. My SA1 was 45/50, but I remembered thinking I was super lan.
The China lady didn't tell me my prelim oral marks as she said it didn't cross her hands.
Fine, I'm sure I didn't do that badly. It went quite alright, I enjoyed it pretty much.
Still, despite revising for the past 2 hours for Chinese oral already (and also a little bit everyday for the past few days), I still lack confidence. Call it low self-esteem, which is so unlike me. I'm usually the confident one, ask anyone. But in this situation I'm like..
Really, if my passage screws up, I'm DONE with it. In such cases like PSLE oral, if I read a word wrong accidentally, I tend to keep thinking about that wrong word and lose control of myself. This isn't very good, but I shall try to stay calm.
And composed.
Deep breath in, deep breath out. Millions of people have experienced this before. Not only me.
And examiner's not going to kill me.
Come on, let's recite our ABC together. Okay more like some reciting oral tips.
-Stay cool, calm.
-Look pleasant
-Talk to the examiner like an old friend, but using formal language.
-SMILE!
Usually my problem is the before-oral symptom. As in I tend to get really nervous and stuff. Okay, for prelims and the SAs I don't get nervous, but somehow even just few days before PSLE oral I feel like freaking out.
But after settling down on the chair, I feel more comfortable.
Oh, Miss Lin said my English oral for prelim was 26-30, all three topics in the 9-10 range. Yay!
Still, unconfident.
I shall try reading those SMSes of good luck and smiley faces again tomorrow morning before setting to school. I hope they will charge confidence into me and lift my mood.
I think I am going to cry.
I've never felt this nervous, this frightened before. Only a hint of excitement.
The below is all false. But I hope it helps to lift my self-esteem, which used to be very high:
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I am confident. I am confident of attaining the top band in my Chinese oral tomorrow. I am confident of getting above 45. I will stay calm and composed, and do my best. I will be above average. I will definitely pass with flying colours. My oral will be a great help in getting me to Nanyang Girls High.
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There. Somehow, the truth of it is starting to burn inside me already. I hope the small flame of hope will turn into a volcano of confidence.
Wish me good luck. I am going to sleep. =)
P.S I WILL DO WELL!